When I feel Like I’m Not Enough
Am I doing enough?
I find myself asking that question over and over in my head.
Sometimes I look at my fellow Moms and see them running businesses, volunteering hours of their time, and just killing it at everything that they’re doing. And sometimes I feel like I’m not keeping up.
Should I be working outside of the home?
Should I volunteer more? I know there are so many great opportunities available to me, but at this point in my life I just.don’t.have.the.time.
Between writing, blogging, being a good (decent) wife, mother, homeschool parent- I just don’t have enough hours in my day. And sometimes I get down on myself about it. I know I shouldn’t, but I do.
As a Christian, I worry I’m not doing enough. Am I working to bring others to His kingdom? Am I using my spiritual gifts?
I just don’t know.
My Husband and I had a conversation about this the other night. And this quote from Mother Teresa came out of my mouth, and I have no idea where I saw it. But, it soothed my questioning soul.
“If you want to change the world, go home and love your family.”
Maybe I was created for a purpose such as this. Maybe THIS is me using my gifts. God gave me this specific child, with a unique set of gifts, that I get to raise. He gave me this Husband to love and support. So, I’m going to stop taking it all for granted, and I’m going to do just this.
This time in my life, I feel like it’s meant for me to be at home- loving my family.
But, if that’s not what you feel like your purpose is at this moment- that’s OKAY! Don’t get down on yourself. Don’t let judgement from others sway you. Maybe you’re EXACTLY where YOU’RE supposed to be.
I stopped in the middle of Spring cleaning my house to write this post- because I just felt like I NEEDED to share it. Maybe just so I could read it. But, I hope it gave you some peace and encouragement as well.